This post goes out to all the Motherless Moms on Mother’s Day. My heart breaks for the pain that Mother's Day day can bring to you and your mama's heart. Some of you may have experienced the physical loss of a mother or in my case, the emotional loss or a toxic mother and relationship. Each one is painful.
I spent the first few years personally hating Mother's Day, feeling jealous of all the brunch photos and love letters my friends posted on Facebook about their moms. I felt alone in my pain since none of my friends could relate it was a very isolating day for me. I tried focusing my attention on my own children and the homemade goodies they gave me but still felt numb and alone. I went through the motions of the day each year pretending to be happy, but I was far from it.
This year will mark six motherless Mothers Day for me; it's gotten a little easier, I've learned to process my feelings and pain I no longer hide it from those closest to me I find peace is speaking my truth now. Walking away from the one person in the world who is supposed to love you with all her heart but doesn't isn't for the faint of heart. Running this brand has helped heal so much hurt for me as a person, from being powerless to empowering mothers I've made peace with my choices through this work at Mom Culture. Mothers Day still brings hurt, but the joy overpowers it now. I still love my mother but know I made the right choices for myself and my family in walking away.
I say a prayer every day for her to find peace within and hope for her to have a happy life its all I have space for now. To those who are hurting this year, I send you so much love and understanding I pray time will heal some of your pain as well and that you'll find beauty in your own motherhood and celebrating with your family.