​I will never forget our first night home with Graham.  It was late at night by the time we returned home from the hospital and Graham was sleeping peacefully in his infant carrier.  My husband turns to me and says, "What do we do with him?" 

This was a question we asked each other so many times over the past 13 months....and my mom.  I knew or thought I knew about the sleepless nights and breastfeeding.  But, oh was I wrong.  I have never known tired like that.  Who knew that a little person could eat so much or so often?  I was blessed to have a great breastfeeding support system in my mom.  I couldn't have made it through without her.  I wouldn't change my decision to breastfeed for the world.  I do wish that I would have relaxed at first, that came months later.  I wish I wouldn't have been so tense, watching the clock, making sure I am holding him the right way, or worried about feeding in public.  My advice is RELAX.  I wish I could go back and tell my new mom self that exact word.  RELAX and it will all be okay.  You will figure it out, and that baby knows exactly what to do, even if you do not.  I would also tell myself, that babies eat and not just at home, so don't freak out about breasts in public people. Babies get hungry!