This. This is why I'm grateful for my infertility.

It is hard, especially during all those years of uncertainty... The tests, the medicines, the surgeries. The heartbreak at every period's beginning. But I would endure hundreds more for these 5.

You see, if I hadn't experienced infertility, I wouldn't be their mom. To be honest, I don't know if we would have pursued adoption if we had been able to have kids on our own. We certainly wouldn't have fostered.

This week is #nationalinfertilityawarenessweek. While I'm thankful for my infertility every moment of every day, this week I get to share with you the hope I found in the midst of my infertility.

HOPE. That's right! There is hope in infertility. The hope comes when you believe you have a purpose. Actually, whether you believe it or not, you have a purpose.

My hope came when I surrendered my purpose. I surrendered to God my idea of what my family was going to look like. I surrendered to God my dream, my purpose as a mom. What He gave me in return was far better than anything I could have ever dreamed up. He gave me 5 beautiful, perfect for me kids.

Have hope future momma! You may be facing the ugly monster of infertility now but God is working. Infertility cannot stop Him from giving you a family far beyond your wildest dreams.

"He gives the childless woman a family, making her a happy mother. PRAISE THE LORD!" Ps 113:9 NLT