My dear husband, I loved you first and I loved you most, but it's all different now.

At the beginning, our life was long walks along the river, rain or shine.

At the beginning, our life was date nights and movie nights.

At the beginning, our life was lounging around all day with not a worry in the world as long as we had each other.

At the beginning, our life was driving anywhere and nowhere in particular.

At the beginning, our life was sitting on the creeks edge and fishing until sunset.

At the beginning, our life was long talks until sunrise about what our futures may hold.

At the beginning it was you and I, hand in hand.

At the beginning, you were the most important thing in my life.

My dear husband, I loved you first and I loved you most, but it’s all different now.

Today, our love is not measured by long walks or deep talks.

Today, if we’re lucky we'll get a date night every once in a while.

Today, driving anywhere means strapping kids into car seats.

Today, binge watching comes at the cost of both of our sanities.

Today, fishing seems out of the question.

Today, it's not about you and I anymore because it’s not just you and I anymore.

Today, we have little hands between us while we walk.

My dear husband, I loved you first and I loved you most, but it’s all different now.

Today, you’re not the most important thing in my life, you are my life in itself.

Today, my being revolves solely around you and our children.

Today, our long talks have shifted to what schools we will choose and what's on the dinner menu tomorrow.

Today, so much has changed and it’s so easy to get caught up in the midst of it all, so hang in there with me.

Today, our life is nothing like the way it once was, and it feels as though we get the last of each other. While I reflect on our harmonious days together, I long for our past. I long for a time when you were the only thing on my to-do list. I long for a time where I was never too tired to stay up late and talk. I long for a time where you didn’t get the last of me. I long for us.

Today, we have what we once prayed for, and for that I’m forever grateful, but for now, if it means getting the last of each other, I ask for you to just hang in there a little longer with me. Take my hand and carry on by my side. Let us continue this journey hand in hand the way we started. Know that my love remains as fierce as ever and only gets stronger.

My dear husband, I loved you first and I loved you most, but it's all different now, and I wouldn't have it any other way.